I did this same meme last year and I thought it might be fun to revisit it again. Here is what is happening in my world right now.
What I Am Listening To: I am listening to Tori Amos’s new album, Unrepentant Geraldines. I’ve listened to her music since college and have attended several of her concerts. She performs with a spirit that is hard to describe. Other songs playing in the background are Maps by Maroon 5, Roar by Katy Perry and Happy by Pharell Williams. My Pandora station is set to Beyonce when I exercise. I typically obsess over one song every season and play it over and over again. Lately, Landslide by Fleetwood Mac seems to default as my music muse.
What I Am Thinking About: Many of my thoughts are scattered. There isn’t much uninterrupted time with my daughter at home and I spend time planning her days, whether it revolves around summer day camp, swimming or a playdate. In my quiet moments, I’ve gravitated toward thinking about the tragedies that haunt so many and how instantly someone’s world can change. I’ve thought about the men, women and children lost in the recent airline tragedy and it prompts me to hug the ones that I love even closer.
What I Am Watching: This summer I’ve watched little television which is not unusual for me. I rarely turn on the television. I followed the World Cup this year and that created a renewed enthusiasm for a sport that I didn’t necessarily appreciate before. Also, tennis matches are on much of the time because my daughter plays. I am still a fan of Downton Abbey and Homeland and look forward to watching them again when they premiere later this year. Several friends recommend House of Cards as a series to follow, so I may try to watch a few episodes.
What I Am Bummed Out On: In the past few weeks, my days have carried the tinge of sorrow. Some of it is just my natural inclination, but I think that July is traditionally a harder month because next week is my father’s birthday. I begin to think about my childhood and a place that I called home for so long and I begin to mourn the hard edges of time. I miss hanging out with my mom and sister and the familiar connections that only home can provide.
What I Am Loving: Reading books late at night. Writing. A good night’s sleep. Candied apples. Having conversations with my daughter. Movie night with my family. Always, always, that first cup of coffee that starts my day.
What is a part of your world right now? Would love to hear from you.
The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough~Rabindranath Tagore
We are fortunate to live in a city that houses the world’s largest butterfly museum. This past weekend my daughter and I decided to venture into this butterfly wonderland. As a little girl, I chased butterflies in our neighborhood. I remember begging my father to get a net to capture these treasures. I never successfully trapped these beauties, but this glimpse of my past flickered as I walked through the greenhouse and watched as my daughter tried to chase the butterflies so that one may land on her finger.
Watching the butterflies flitter around, I gasped at the array of colors. These were butterflies that I never encountered in the past. Blues, reds and whites speckled the green landscape and landed on various flowers. Children laughed and giggled and adults seem to take their cue, gasping with sighs of wonder at how fast they moved about and within an instant, gone.
Everyone appeared to focus on the moment and, of course, the metaphor seemed appropriate. Most butterflies only live for a month and many live less because of predators, disease and large objects, like vehicles. I wondered if all just focused on the moments knowing that they are short, how our view of life might evolve. I’ve documented my propensity to not live in the present, but to anticipate time that hasn’t yet arrived.
With each photograph that I took one phrase seem to gain traction in my mind: Honor the present. It seemed so easy, standing there, watching adults and children mulling and interacting with the butterflies captured by what unfolded in front of them.
Moments, not months. Isn’t that what life is about?
I read the Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz many years ago. These are the tenets of his philosophy. I refer back to these often because his wisdom is timeless.
1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
3. Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
― Don Miguel Ruiz